Behind His Hazel Eyes 2- Chapter 7

She tried to push him but he was immovable.

“Stop!” Impit na tili nya.

“No! I won’t stop until you realize that you are not for Rafael! He don’t deserve you!” Sambit pa nito habang pilit pa ring sinasakop ang kanyang bibig no matter how she keep her mouth away.

She felt her heart bleed. Zack thinks Rafael does not deserve her because naniniwala itong isa syang masamang babae? Isang babaeng naninira ng relasyon?

That was the reason alone…and perhaps he was even just trying to lure her into himself para malipat ang atensyon nya na sa pagkakaalam ata nito ay na kay Rafael at wala rito.

Ang sakit naman…

 

“PLEASE Zack! Tama na!” Daing nya.

But Zack ripped her clothes apart for the second time around. Napasinghap sya at kinalmot nya ang leeg nito.

Why is it Mia? At hindi mo sya nakalmot sa mukha? Nakakahinayang ba?

Nakakainis na konsensya naman ‘to!

She was trying all her might para maitulak ito but she just couldn’t! Kung bakit pa kasi men had always been physically stronger than women! E di sana’y madali nyang mapapatumba ito.

“Don’t provoke me to hurt you Mia!” Banta nito. “I just wanted to show you that I am much better than Rafael. Para ibigay mo na lang sya kay Charlize.”

Sinampal nya ito. Paulit-ulit na sinampal nya ito, while her eyes are shut. Ayaw nyang makita ang mukha nitong tinatanggap na lamang ang kanyang mga sampal.

Bigla na lang nitong hinawakan ang kamay nya ng sobrang higpit na pakiramdam nya ay mababalian siya nito.

At muli ay kinarga sya nito palabas ng cr at marahas na hinagis sa kama.

Gusto nyang maawa sa sarili ng sobra-sobra dahil sa pagtrato nito sa kanya ngayon.

God what have I done wrong to deserve this? I’ve been a really good girl…

Nanghilakbot sya nang maramdaman ang kamay ni Zack sa kanyang puson. Tinatanggal nito ang kanyang suot na shorts!

And in just a second ay natanggal na nga nito iyon.

Nang ito naman ang magtatanggal ng damit nito ay madali syang bumangon para pumunta sa pinto para makalabas pero naabutan parin sya nito. Niyakap sya nito ng mahigpit sa baywang.

Nagpupumiglas siya at tumili na naman ng tumili.

“No! Let me go!”

Itinulak na naman sya nito sa kama.

“Later Mia…I just wanted you to compare…para malaman mo kung sino sa amin ang mas magaling…” para na itong hayop sa panigin niya. Hindi na ito ang Zack na inaakala niya..

How can this man still look straight in her eyes while doing this horrible thing to her?

For comparison? Yun ang goal nito? God Zack…please let it not be your reason…

But the truth is, it is his major reason and she can never change that.

Kahit pa masakit para sa kanya ‘yun, she was left with nothing else to do.

And before she noticed it she was already naked and Zack was on top of her wearing absolutely nothing. His warmth took away her capacity to think straight. His warm touch all over her body made her think for a moment na maloloka na sya, kung saan-saan na lamang siya bumabaling at humahawak para lang makalma sya sa kakaibang nadarama nya.

Kahit pa may pagka-marahas ang mga halik at ang paraan ng mga haplos nito ay hindi nya pa rin mapigilan ang magustuhan ‘yun. Natakot sya sa isiping baka nagiging masokista na sya.

Tears just fell from her eyes, hindi man nya aminin ay parang gusto na nyang hayaan si Zack sa plano nito. And let him find out for himself that he was wrong about her. And maybe then he would change the way he thought about her.

But what about after this Mia? Given that he changes the way he thinks about you?

If this is the only way to prove to him na hindi talaga sya ang klase ng taong iniisip nito ay ibibigay nya ang sarili nya rito.

That simple? I don’t believe you Mia…Mahabang panahon mong iningatan ang sarili mo…that couldn’t be the only reason!

Humagulhol sya.

Fine! Because I love him! I love him so much na kahit sa ganitong paraan ay magpapaubaya ako para lang malinis ako sa paningin nya!

She finally admitted that to herself and she felt Zack stop mid-kiss.

Malinis, Mia? Can you still say na malinis ka parin after this?

Napadaing sya sa naramdamang sumalakay na sakit sa kaibuturan nya. He was ready…so ready that it was surprising to find him stopping all of a sudden.

Their eyes met, and as if they haven’t stared eye to eye for a long time ay maraming mga tanong syang nakikita sa mga mata nito.

Sana kaya pa nyang ngumiti ng nakakasuya rito at sabihin sa mukha nitong;

I told you so…

But did she even say anything? Zack didn’t even give her the chance to say anything…At basta-basta na lang ito sa ginagawa nito.

He was almost inside her but he can’t fully enter…and she knows by his reaction that he just found out why at para itong binagsakan ng malaking bato sa likod nito.

He hugged her so tight that she felt his heartbeat on her chest. She can even hear them too.

“Mia…” anas nito.

Is he going to stop now?

Mas mabuti yun Mia…at least hindi ka pa nababasag…you can still save yourself and maybe in the future give it to someone really deserving.

But isn’t Zack deserving?

How can he be deserving?

“Will you  let me continue, Mia?” tanong nito na para bang ang boses ay nakabaon sa ilalim ng lupa sa sobrang lalim ng boses nito.

Sa dami na ng kasalanan ng lalaking ito sa kanya siguro naman ay may karapatan syang patayin na ito.

But she won’t and she can’t. She loves him too much to do such a thing.

Call me stupid…But I have never been this stupid my whole life…and I chose this moment to be stupid just once…for him…

“Will you stop if I say no?” balik tanong nya rito.

Napapikit ito na tila ba nahihirapan ng sobra at tumango.

“Y-yes…” sambit nito. “God I know I’m such a pain in the ass!”

Sinabunutan nya ito, “Ano’ng pain in the ass?” singhal nya dito.

Napangiti ito sa sinabi nya.

“I wanna make love with you Mia…not because of what I told you earlier…I was lying…I just couldn’t accept it…you and Rafael!”

Bumuntong hininga sya.

“Will you let me?” ulit nito.

“Akala ko magsasalita ka na lang d’yan?”

Natawa ito.

“Of course I wanted to continue ‘coz’ I don’t want to make you think I do not finish what I have started, but I have to ask for your permission first…”

At aktong babangon na sya.

“Sige..mag-usap na lang tayo…”

Natatawang hinila ulit sya nito pahiga.

At muli ay sinakop nito ang kanyang mga labi, this time much much thriftier. It felt like the first time they kissed…

This time Zack’s moves become more careful… as if not wanting to inflict a single pain to her.

Ang maingat nitong pag-galaw para hindi sya masaktan eased the pain. When she felt him there again ay impit na napaungol sya, bigla ay sumalakay ang kaba sa dibdib nya. Kabang hindi dulot ng pag-aalinlangan kundi kaba na maaaring idulot ng sakit lalo pa’t unang beses nya ito.

Zack knew it and he was extra extra careful. But no matter how careful he is, pain started to overcome her as he entered inside her. Zack whispered some sweet words of encouragement and reassurance to her that everything will be okay. His lips enveloped hers when a tiny scream came out of her.

“Mia…Oh Mia…” paulit-ulit na sambit ni Zack sa pangalan nya. Samantalang siya ay napapakagat-labi na lang para hindi sya makasigaw.

With a final thrust, she felt like the universe burst inside of her. Zack hugged her tight as to calm the both of them. They held on to each other until they managed to breath normally again. She felt unbelievably happy.

“Mia?” untag nito sa kanya after everything. They still remained cuddled with each other, with him still above her and he was still inside her. He was caressing her cheeks.

”Hmm?” sagot nya rito.

Gusto na syang usigin ng konsensya nya. But, all her life she had been so straight, so obedient and very logical. Kaya for once, ayaw nya munang isipin ang mga negative sides ng mga nangyari. She had always wanted to be crazy sometimes, and this is it…

“I know I’ve been such a crude heartless person. But I want you to know that I am not always like this…” sabi nito.

“Talaga?”

She didn’t mean it but she did sound sardonic and doubtful.

“I can’t take it away from you…I’ve made an impression to you by being such a pain in the…”

“Ass?” pagtutuloy nya.

She didn’t mean it too but she did sound like she was mocking.

Narinig nya ang pagtawa nito.

Umingit sya…“Bigat mo na…” daing nya.

Madali naman itong umalis sa ibabaw nya at payakap na hinila sya para sya naman ang pumaibabaw dito. He still did not leave her, he was still inside her.

“Now let’s talk…” anito.

“Like this?” tanong nya na medyo hindi komportable sa ayos nila.

He smiled amusingly.

They were still both naked at nakapaibabaw pa sya dito!  And he wanted them to talk like this?

“Yeah…while we are still connected…” and he kissed her. “Baka kasi magkalituhan na naman tayo. Pagod na ako sa mga maling akala eh…perhaps it’s time to be eloquent.”

“May tama ka!” Natatawang sabi nya.

Tatlong katok sa pinto ang kumuha sa atensyon nya.

“Mia?” tawag ng boses ni Manag Laly sa labas.

Babangon sana sya nang hilahin sya ulit ni Zack.

“Shhh…” anito.

“Pero-“

“Don’t answer so she will think that you’re still sleeping.” anito.

“Ang pinto baka buksan nya…”

Ayokong may makakita sa atin na ganito ang hitsura noh! Akalain pa nila ako ang nang-rape sa’yo!

“Don’t worry. I locked the door last night…”

Napansin naman nya ang kakaibang ngiti nito. At nag-init ang kanyang mukha sa napansin, bigla nyang nahila ang kumot at naitakip sa hubad na dibdib kung saan nakatitig si Zack.

Inabot nito ang kamay nya at hinawakan ‘yun. He stared at her with his eyes smiling, and once again, through the light from the window ay naaninag ulit nya ang napakagandang kulay ng mga mata nito. His hazel eyes.

“A-ano?”

“How come you can still manage to blush like that when I already took away your innocence?” para pang nanunudyo nitong tanong.

“Ewan ko sayo!” Ingos nya at tatayo na sana nang pigilan nito.

“Let’s start over…this time we’ll make it right…I will make it right.”

Saka mabilis na naman ang mga katok sa kanyang silid.

“Mia! Mia? Nandyan ka ba?” sigaw na ni Manang Laly at mukhang tarantang-taranta ang tono ng boses nito.

“B-bakit po Manang Laly?” sagot nalang nya.

“Hay Mia! Nasaan ba si Zack? Wala kasi sya sa silid nya! May nangyari kasi at kailangan na malaman nya agad ito!”

Napabalikwas si Zack ng bangon.

“Bakit Manang Laly?” tanong ni Zack.

Gusto na nyang matunaw dahil ano nalang ang iisipin ni Manang Laly at umagang-umaga ay nasa kuwarto nya si Zack?

Totoo naman ah! You two already did it…naisuko mo na ang Bataan…

Napatapik sya sa sariling noo.

“Zack! Zack si Rafael!” Sabi ni Manang Laly.

Napatayo sya bigla sa narinig.

“Po? Ano po’ng nangyari kay Rafael?” tanong nya in impulse.

“Nadisgrasya si Rafael! Papunta raw sya rito kaninang madaling araw at nagkabanggaan ang sasakyan nya at isang jeep.” sa sinabi nito ay mabilis na nagbihis si Zack…pati narin siya.

 

OH GOD! Tingin ko ako ang may kasalanan nito! I told him na nandito ako sa Sta. Monica! And he has an important thing to tell me about Charlize! Kaya siguro at that instant ay susugod sana sya sa hacienda!

Hindi mapakaling nahawakan nya ang kanyang ulo sa isiping ‘yun. Ngayon nga ay nakasakay na sila ni Zack sa kotse nito pabalik ng Manila.

Ayon sa tawag na natanggap ni Manang Laly ay isinugod agad si Rafael sa hospital sa Manila.

At doon sila patungo ngayon ni Zack. Mabilis pa sa alas kwatro na nagbihis sila…ayaw pa sana sya nitong isama pa pero nagpumilit sya.

“Stay here…” anito.

“No, take me with you. I need to see him…” sabi nya habang nagbibihis, this time ay wala na nga siyang nakakapang hiya sa pagbibihis sa harapan nito. Eh nagbibihis din naman ito.

“Hindi ka naman kailangan du’n. Stay here and rest.”

Tinitigan nya ito.

“How can I rest, Zack? Pakiramdam ko ako ang dahilan nito…I told him na nandito ako and he said he had something important to tell me…I was too excited kaya sinabi ko…” nanginginig na sabi nya.

Zack stared at her…She couldn’t figure out what’s with those eyes…But this time…gone are those hateful things she’s seeing there…

Now all that she is seeing is something she can’t name…

Pero hindi nya yata parin gusto ‘yun…

“Sasama ako and you can’t stop me…not again Zack…”

Gusto na naman nyang iuntog ang ulo sa huling tinuran na iyon…parang may iba naman syang kahulugan doon!

But it’s not how she wanted it to sound like…

Zack was strangely very silent their whole trip.

They will continue their converstation. But for now, what’s important is malaman nya ang lagay ni Rafael.

 

THEY arrived at the hospital ng alas-dos ng hapon. Nandun ang ata ang buong angkan ng mga Salcedo.

Nasa likod lang sya ni Zack at hawak nito ang kamay nya habang papalapit sila.

Dahil sa nakitang ngiti sa mukha ni Tita Mildred nang makita si Zack ay parang nabuhayan sya ng dugo. At least the smile should indicate something positive.

Sinalubong si Zack ng yakap ni Tita Mildred.

“How is he?” tanong ni Zack.

“He’s better now.” mahinang sabi ni Tita Mildred. At nilingon sya sa likod ni Zack.

Alanganin na ngumiti sya, at nginitian din naman sya nito.

“Good to see you again, Mia,” sabi nito at siya naman ang niyakap. Afterwards ay tiningala nito ang pamangkin, “Bakit naman inabala mo pa si Mia rito?”

Tiningnan sya ni Zack.

“She was also worried as hell.” walang ekspresyon nitong sabi.

Tiningnan sya ng ginang, at nginitian na naman.

“Come meet the rest of the family.” hinila sya nito.

Nakilala naman nya ang mga pinsan ni Zack na magkapatid pala, sina Van at Dylan. Looking at them made her think that they have excellent genes. Kung sana binibenta lang ‘yun ay mas dumami pa sana ang mga magagandang tao sa mundo.

Lumapit si Rachel at bineso sya.

“Gising na sya…do you two want to see him?” sabi ni Rachel sa kanilang dalawa ni Zack.